Since I can’t make Read more line breaks on my phone, here’s a trigger warning for death/suicide mentions.
I know I would never commit suicide, but I wish I could kill myself without any repercussions. I’ve fucked up so much in the past year. I’m a failure, a loser and I don’t even know if I can fix it anymore. The future is terrifying when so many bad possibilities overshadow the good. I’ve always had a bad habit of basing my happiness off of others. I can’t make myself happy and I’ve been so alone. This is the only place I feel like I can vent out some of this. I don’t know what to do. I don’t want to deal with this anymore. I know I’ll reread this in the morning and feel ridiculous, but I’ll feel the same again later, like I do every single day. I’ll be ok though. It happens.